I’m Blanca, 20 years old, and I tried my first ruined orgasm when i read your tumblr for first time. I conceived it would be a strange kind of pleasure, but it wasn’t pleasure at all! It was just… nothing. But i can’t stop ruining my orgasms since then, i can’t get myself a real cum, i’m desperate, and then i thought “If James took my to this, maybe James could get me out of this.” So… can i please please please cum?

Oh Blanca, sweetheart, what do you mean?

You are cumming.

When I cum it’s a ruin,
When I ruin it’s a cum

Just say that over and over again as you edge, it’s your reality now.

No release from your arousal, just that desperate, aching, nothingness.

It wouldn’t happen if it wasn’t what you really wanted.

It’s better this way.