Isn’t it incredible. People read about denial and think ‘WTF, why wouldn’t I want to cum?!’ And this, this is why!
Yes it’s normal (although experiences vary, not loves it like this and that’s fine too).
You’ll go through stages, and time of the month varies how you feel too. Sometimes you’ll crave that elusive orgasm, other times you’ll feel like this. The fact it varies is part of the delight of denial, it’s constantly changing and challenging.
Thank you for the encouragement, and keep on edging!