I am so freaking fu*ked…… gawddddd who thought that an entire month of denial would be doable???? It’s only 30 days I said, thousands of people do this I said…. well I thought wrong. It’s only day six and Im desperate. I’m so desperate I would literally do anything. I hate myself so much but the ache feels so freaking good I can’t help but love it to🤦🏼‍♀️ what did you do James? What did you do?