Day 7- punishment
I’m the kind of girl who likes to kill two birds with one stone. So I thought about this for a second. How am I going to make sure I don’t keep going over? I want to just cum and cum and cum and never stop right now. I thought about forcing myself to orgasm until it was too much. Maybe if I just got every last ounce out of that little vibe I could just put it away for good. I didn’t end up doing that, but this is what I did do:
The first orgasm is usually my “starter”, I need at least a few more to be satisfied. So what I decided to do is take that little vibe, turn it all the way up, press it down as hard as I could, and fight it. I thought about all of the guys I’ve been talking to lately, the attention I’ve been getting (non turned on me is not like this) and I imagined getting fucked one by one. (This is where I’m going to start to confessing fantasies that I’ll be embarrassed by later).
So believe it or not this orgasm didn’t come easy. I pressed and thought and rode that edge for a while (or at least it felt that way). I think it’s because I was just alone in my dark room with my thoughts. No visual stimulation from tumblr or porn. Not that this was a bad thing, a lot of time I like my thoughts better because only I know exactly what I want.
So when I finally came it was much more intense than the first. But it did exactly what I thought it would do. I am on FIRE. I just want to fuck and fuck and fuck. My nipples and my clit are hard, I’m soaking wet squeezing my legs together to get some relief. This is the hard part. Not after that first “starter” orgasm, after the second, the good one, the one that just makes me insatiable. This is the feeling I’ve been looking for.
So now the vibe is going away and tomorrow is officially my “day 1”. And this time I know I’ll start it off dripping. I think I tried too hard to follow the rules this week and didn’t listen to my body enough and what I already know.
So my new rules are, for tumblr/porn fingers only. If I’m using a toy, mental stimulation only. No more vibes. I might tweak this as I get better, but got the next week this is what I’m doing for sure.
I have that feeling in the pit of my tummy. My cunt is clenching at nothing and wants to be filled. I’m seconds away from rubbing my tits into the bed just because I need to rub on something.
I’m not going to proofread this because if I do I won’t post it.
(Oh, and my migraine is nearly gone from this high I’m feeling right now.)
Amazing description, so good. And I love the new rules.
Well done, you’re doing fabulously!