I was kink triggered at a pretty young age and I wonder if there’s something wrong with me. My mother was warning me about the dangers of the world and she explained to me what rape was. My next thought was: what does sex feel like? I didn’t know what sex was supposed to be like so I used a rape fantasy to get off. I understood almost nothing about vaginas and sex (I didn’t even know the word vagina) so I rubbed my clit until I orgasmed. I never came though.

There’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. Rape fantasies continue to be one of the most popular. It used to be theorised it was about the loss of control but I was reading this absolutely fascinating article in Psychology Today recently and the causes are seen as far more complex (and interesting) today:

https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/slightly-blighty/201508/womens-sexual-fantasies-the-latest-scientific-research

So don’t feel guilty, firstly know it’s very, very common, but also it’s just a fantasy, it doesn’t mean you want it in real life. That’s what fantasies are often for, to let your mind go places you wouldn’t want to for real. It’s the sign of a HEALTHY and creative mind, so let go of any guilt, and stop worrying about it.