Tag : my-denial-diary

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Yesterday was intense…I don’t even know where to start writing it up. But I know it’ll help me process things happening in my denial. And since a big thing happened…well, read until the end 😉 

I love mindfucks in denial, they’re one of the hottest things in that kink for me. But to have it happen to myself was so overwhelming it made me cry. A deep ugly cry, until Sir reassured me it was okay. He was proud of how I’d done. Even if I was undoubtedly an emotional mess, those words grounded me again. They silenced all the doubt in my head in an instant and made it all okay. I’d be okay.

To start from the beginning, I’d made him proud and earned an orgasm! 

It always makes me happy to know I did well. Even if it’s just to hear ‘good girl’. It makes me grin at my phone and eager to push myself. To do even better. 

I spend all day thinking about how amazing finally cumming would be like. I soaked my panties in a matter of hours. I’d get an orgasm. Scratch that, I apparently deserved as many as I liked?! Why are you being so nice? For a moment I wondered what he had up his sleeve. If the number of times I came would be weeks in denial, or similar. 

But no, after a hell lot of teasing and edging, he said I did well and was allowed to cum. Hard. And I did. I hit such a hard edge, I’m still not sure what happened…but the moment I hit the edge, I pulled back my hand and ruined the orgasm. Much to his delight. It made me cry, I couldn’t believe it. My own body doesn’t respond to my wishes anymore. Instead, it does what he wants.

I always enjoyed mindfucks in orgasm denial, but to have it happen to myself was unbelievable. It made me cry, scream and horny all over again. It made me realize my orgasms really don’t belong to myself anymore and it makes me squirm. Both with excitement and nervousness. God knows what else he can trick my body into doing…

But I know whatever it will be, it’s something that’ll please him. And that’s all that matters and makes me happy.

So incredible. I’m very proud.
Good girl.

Squirming in public


Today I did something I’ve wanted to try for a long time. Edging in public. Not in plain view where someone could see me but somewhere I could easily be caught, but also hide my lower half from view. 

I found the perfect spot in the restroom of a gallery my work is being shown as part of an exposition. It was such a large, beautiful restroom with stalls in the back and several massive blocks of granite with sinks placed on top of them. I made sure there was no one in the restroom before picking out a washing table to stand behind, hiding my lower half and pushing up my skirt.

That thrill was so amazing. I was soaked in a matter of moments, watching the door in case someone entered. Luckily no one did and I worked myself up to a hard edge. 

Remembering it now, at home, I wish I’d had the nerve to do that in the men’s room. Maybe one day. 

My anal only week


Most of the times when I have my period, I see it as a no touch week, something that annoys me greatly but this time, I set myself up for a new challenge. Instead of no touch week, I’d make those 5-7 days anal week this time. Now, whenever I’ve tried edging before during my period, it makes my cramps even worst in most cases and that doesn’t help at all. However that was with vaginal and clitoral edges, I was curious to see how it would be if I managed to edge anally without any other touches.

On top of that, I edged to anal porn, trying to mirror the things in clips that aroused me. Still, my king cock is one huge toy and it takes me quite some time to work it inside of me. But it feels so good to be stretched around it and I’m always strangely proud when I take if fully. What it is good for however is warming me up to my favorite plug, a tunnel plug or hollow plug. It keeps me open for as long as I can manage and it’s super distracting because it turns me on so much to work with it in.

While I didn’t manage to edge purely from anal, it did provide with some distraction from the pain and cramps and often left me super needy and dripping, dying to touch my clit. I think I’ll try it more often and see period week as anal weeks now since they surprisingly made me a very horny denial slut.


What a good girl.

Well done Lizzy.

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What was the hardest thing (the thing your brain or body has the biggest pushback) you did for permission to cum?


Uhm so for permission to ruin @female-orgasm-denial once made me drink a whole lot in the course of an hour since I claimed I was desperate and he wanted to show me I obviously didn’t know what desperate was. 😳  I have a tiny bladder so it became a struggle soon enough and I still had to drive home. I was so sure I’d make a mess before I got home. Once I was home he made me edge on the toiletseat and it was a struggle to hold it. I’d begged for a ruin in the beginning of the afternoon and then he made me pick, did I want that ruin? Or did I want to use the toilet?

I chose the latter and gave up my ruin. 

Denial sluts? I’m curious!



  • 1. Mostly hit the edge just once OR mostly hitting and riding the edge for an extended amount of time
  • 2. Self imposed denial OR being denied
  • 3. Mostly solo edging OR edging with someone physically
  • 4. Use a variety of toys and (internet) aids OR just use your body(’s)
  • 5. Edging tasks OR doing whatever comes to mind
  • 6. Short term denial (under a week) OR long term denial (over a week)
  • 7. Edging is better OR cumming is better
  • 8. As much edging as fits in a day OR way less edging and strict no touch
  • 9. Edging made me easier OR edging made me like more stuff
  • 10. Edging is more mental torture OR Edging is more physical torture
  • 11. Share your denial story somewhere online OR keep it to yourself
  • 12. Also a denial bitch OR only a denial slut

About 9: Easier in the sense of more
willing to have sex or like more stuff in the sense that you get horny
by new or more things because of edging

About 12: A denial bitch is someone who loves getting off on knowing
other women can’t cum, and also love shoving it in denial sluts faces
that she as a denial bitch does get to cum

Comment, reblog or make a new post with maybe #denialslutfacts

My answers;

  • 1: Riding and hitting the edge over and over
  • 2: Being denied, whether online or by my side
  • 3: Mostly solo really
  • 4: Variety of toys and aids
  • 5: If I’m on my own, whatever comes to mind. Otherwise, tasks
  • 6: Longer please. 😛
  • 7: Edging is better
  • 8: As much as fits in the day
  • 9: Edging made me like more stuff (both really but hey)
  • 10: Edging is mental torture for me
  • 11: Online… duh. 😛
  • 12: Also a denial bitch, or I try to be

1: Riding that edge over and over. It’s so great and drives me mad with need.
2: Being denied is far more enjoyable.
3: Mostly solo.
4: Toys and aids, I love exploring.
5: I love edging tasks, comes with being denied by someone.
6: Long term.
7: Edging is better, duh.
8: As much as possible :p
9: Both, but mostly I’m more open to stuff.
10: Mental torture.
11: Sharing my denial stories. Have you seen my blog :p 
12: Denial slut, I suck at being mean to people.

Interesting little tumblr denial quiz…

Since you’re so into denial, how does an orgasm affect you? Does it have any long lasting difference, does it feel like you’re cheating or getting something undeserved?


It doesn’t feel like something bad. I just enjoy them way more. It’s like when you’re on a diet and you’re allowed to have a candy on cheat day. lol. That’s the best way I can describe it. Too much of one thing puts me off of it and having an orgasm every once in a while when I’m allowed keeps me motivated.