So when I was younger I didn’t exactly understand orgasms. When I would cum, I would always ruin it, but I thought that was what you were supposed to do. Now, I crave those days where I could willingly ruin my own orgasm

It’s still what you’re supposed to do… 

If you want a right little head fuck try whispering the Ruined Mantra as you edge:

A cum is a ruin and a ruin is a cum
A cum is a ruin and a ruin is a cum

over and over, until a ruin is all you ever want, get or even understand.

Good girl