Last night I did my longest edge yet, 2 hours between humping my pillow and lightly putting my vibrator against my clit through my panties. By the time I finished my panties were soaked and sticking to my skin like I had worn them into the shower.It took me another hour to fall asleep, but I was happy. I could feel the endorphins and the rush and my head was buzzing. And then I dropped.
I woke up empty and tired and unable to concentrate. I feel like a failure. I simultaneously want someone to hold me but I also want no one to touch me. I have no desire to edge today. And while I’m not making myself cum, I think that for the next few days I’m going to just focus on me. Not force myself to edge. Hopefully this will be enough to help me.Update 5:50pm
I’m going out with this kid I used to mess around with all the time. It’s nothing serious but I’ve decided I could use the human contact. Who knows, maybe me being a hoe will help. This’ll be my first time doing things with a boy since doing this challenge so we’ll see if I can hold out
Thank you for sharing this B&D, and good plan on the human contact!