Last night I did my longest edge yet, 2 hours between humping my pillow and lightly putting my vibrator against my clit through my panties. By the time I finished my panties were soaked and sticking to my skin like I had worn them into the shower.It took me another hour to fall asleep, but I was happy. I could feel the endorphins and the rush and my head was buzzing. And then I dropped.
I woke up empty and tired and unable to concentrate. I feel like a failure. I simultaneously want someone to hold me but I also want no one to touch me. I have no desire to edge today. And while I’m not making myself cum, I think that for the next few days I’m going to just focus on me. Not force myself to edge. Hopefully this will be enough to help me.
I’m going out with this kid I used to mess around with all the time. It’s nothing serious but I’ve decided I could use the human contact. Who knows, maybe me being a hoe will help. This’ll be my first time doing things with a boy since doing this challenge so we’ll see if I can hold out
Thank you for sharing this B&D, and good plan on the human contact!