The first three days of JuNO have been a mixed bag for me. My edging sessions have been more intense and even more fun than usual, mostly because I’m really excited to be a part of JuNO with all of these other beautiful denial sluts! On the other hand, I’ve had several accidental ruins and one major disaster. More on that below.
One edge, just before bed. I used my wand vibe on my dick (aka my “clit”) and finished with my hand for a few minutes. I stopped before I went over the edge, and drifted off to sleep in a wave of denied bliss.
Five edges (one just after waking up, two in the afternoon, two just before bed), two ruins. This is where the problems started cropping up. I started each session by tucking and using my wand vibe through my panties. After building up a solid edge with that I would switch to my g-spot wand for some muffing (http://www.thecsph.org/wotw-muffing/). As usual, I ended my edging sessions with just my hand on my clit. I accidentally went over the edge once in the afternoon and once just before bed, though I ruined both orgasms. The problem comes from spending too much time with my hand on my clit. After a long edging session with vibrators, the direct stimulation makes it too easy to slip over the edge.
June 3rd: The Day of Disaster
Three edges (one each in the morning, afternoon, and evening). My first two sessions were perfect. I started each one lying in bed with my wand vibe over my panties, humping against it like the greedy slut that I am. After a while I started playing with my breasts with one hand while still humping against the vibrator. After I was nearly delirious from that I switched to my hand to ride the edge for a few minutes. Both times I stopped without going over.
I stared out my third session with some furniture humping. Wearing two pairs of panties,I fucked the corner of my nightstand for ten minutes before I decided that it was time for some anal. I don’t have any of my plugs with me at the moment, but my g-spot want worked in a pinch. I fucked the corner of the nightstand for five more minutes with the wand in my ass before taking it out and moving to the bed for some clit action. I alternated between my hand and my wand, but disaster struck when I was using my hand. I slipped over the edge without realizing it and I didn’t manage to pull my hand away until I went one stroke over the edge. That was enough to make the difference between a full orgasm and a ruin, it turns out.
Because of this, I’m starting over as of June 4th and my month of denial will end on July 3rd. I started JuNO in part to help me increase my self-discipline, and I’m pretty disappointed in myself so far. To that end I’ve decided to impose some rules on myself.
Rule 1: Edging sessions will not last more than twenty minutes.
Rule 2: No stroking my clit in the last five minutes of a session. I can touch the head, but stroking leads to cumming and good girls don’t cum.
Rule 3: I must play with my ass or my breasts before I can stroke my clit.
Please feel free suggest more rules, or ways that I can make up for my failure.
I’ve really enjoyed JuNO so far, despite failing on the third day and I look forward to spending the rest of the month orgasm free.
I am a denial slut.
Can I just say how glad I am that you submitted this JuNO Journal -it’s so good to have people sharing where you mess it up as well as where it’s going great. Thank you! And yes, I think you’re being a big harsh on yourself counting that as a full orgasm but you’re the judge, and starting again, well it’s just more chance to learn self-control, so well done honey.
Also, ‘muffing’ well that was a new one on me (never, ever going to try it, just sayin’)