I really like the thought of denial and I used to like doing it, but now whenever I am in denial I get conflicted and end up not enjoying it very much, yet it’s still a large turn-on. Is this normal?

Change is normal. That’s okay! If you enjoy getting off on the idea, do that, if you enjoy cumming when others can’t, do that, and if you fancy being the one denied, give that a go.

This is for fun and challenge, it’s not a religion.

Holy shit I should make this a religion.