This is amazing, well done! I do think there is lots more to explore with the whole intermingling of denial with anxiety and how it can help. It sounds like you’re doing brilliantly.
I’d love to find out more about just what you did if you ever want to share so do feel free to hit me up on chat here (all messages are always entirely confidential, I know you can’t do it anon) and I can also tell you more of the things I’ve tried in that situation.
Also if anyone missed it I recommended some resources on dealing with anxiety in a recent post