I JUST RUINED AN ORGASM WITHOUT ANY CLIT STIMULATION.
I DID NOT REALIZE THIS WAS POSSIBLE FOR ME.
I am such a mess of mixed emotions right now. I was following the Advent Denial Challenge task for today, (gooning with flashing porn and hypnosis audio!), and to remove any danger of accidentally going over while all gooned out, I decided I’d just fuck myself with my favorite dildo.
And I did, for a long time, slow, gradually increasing speed, getting hornier and hornier until I was fucking pounding myself, ramming it against my G-spot. I genuinely felt like I might cum. I decided to let myself, if I could, it would be worth it to experience my first vaginal orgasm ever.
Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
I let go, and I squirted… and at first I didn’t even realize I had, because there was NO EXTRA PLEASURE. It was just like I continued edging, only suddenly everything started to feel like I’d just came… Increased sensitivity, decreased libido, painful-to-touch clit. (I’m not really a multiple-orgasms-are-fun kinda gal, generally.)
So I stopped, cleaned myself off, and processed what the fuck had just happened.
It didn’t feel like a clitoral ruin, but it didn’t feel like an orgasm either. Well, I now (a few minutes after) feel like I just came, with the sensitivity and decreased libido, but there was none of the pleasure I’m aching for. I just feel empty and frustrated and…
Will my arousal come back soon? Why do I want it to?
Oh what joy!
If you’re a really lucky girl maybe they’ll all ruin like that from now on.